Sorry to be spammy. I'm just waiting for my oven to heat up. It would also be great if Dad could come home and bring my truck home ( Read more... )

Okay. Last night, I did a little self-analysis (NOT soul-searching; that's bullshit), and discovered the reason I keep putting things off and then worrying about them and effectively not getting shit done is because I keep screwing up my attempts to put some order in my life. I am going to pick those back up, goddammit. And very, very soon ( Read more... )

Just finished reading Ringworld's Children. It all comes down to Teela Brown, doesn't it? Every little plot thingy that happens. Also, to not be spoilery to anyone who may read it... I kind of knew LW was going to hit level three. I thought it would happen at the end of The Ringworld Throne, but it makes sense that it happen eventually. I think the ( Read more... )

I can't ask for help. It's one of those things that's been driven into me by my past and parents. And now? I get in trouble when I don't ask for it. All my life, I would have to first gather up all the courage I could just to ask for help, but then when I did, I got yelled at and treated like crap for being the teeniest bit afraid. That taught me ( Read more... )

I now weigh 185 ( Read more... )

I think I need to go back to bed. I "slept" for three hours last night, meaning I was in some kind of feverish waking-dream thing where it was mildly related to the fact that Bryan and I watched Memoirs of a Geisha, played Monopoly, and something about rubbing my stubbly, hairy, fat legs. Then I woke up, freezing, and then slept for real for three ( Read more... )

Last night I had a dream about Bryan. I dreamt that he was over at my house, but it was far too late for me to drive him home and for me to drive back, so my parents said he could spend the night. He was supposed to sleep on the couch, but he eventually snuck into my room (we planned it, in my dream, actually) and we slept together. Not SLEPT ( Read more... )